Prologue

She sat across from me, fiddling with her camera. When I turned my head to look at the vast expanse of white reed flowers beyond the railway tracks, I felt her press the shutter button aimed at me

The police car and ambulance, both sounding their sirens, gradually receded into the distance, and I did not take a single step to pursue them. The crowd slowly dispersed, leaving behind a pool of blood of unknown origin on the ground

He asked me to take care of grandmother

I opened my mouth, wondering how to speak to her. I know a person who never carries luggage, makes no plans, and does not bring a camera wherever he goes. Sometimes, he will change his itinerary midway just for a delicious snack, going wherever he sees fit. Perhaps that is the true meaning of travel

I once met a girl on the train to the countryside

I pasted that photo on the wall, next to it is a picture of Lan Shan wearing a red sweater. At that time, she looked so fierce, like a piece of ice

But in the end, I said nothing

I am here, while our youth is over there

That was a long time ago, but sometimes I feel as if it all happened just yesterday

I deeply regret that if I had not said to Jianian "I want him dead" in a moment of losing my senses, and if I had managed to pull myself together a bit earlier, Jianian's life would not have been marked by such a heavy stroke, and perhaps his life would not have turned out that way

I gazed at the expression in my eyes in that photograph, and gradually, it overlapped with the look in my eyes when Jianian turned back to look at me while getting into the police car

But she began to chat with me enthusiastically, asking, "Beautiful lady, are you traveling?"

But I am like a fish discarded on the beach, with not a drop of moisture in my body

I smiled at her without saying a word

That night, I slept in the guest room while he slept on the sofa in the guest room

All beings are silent, I only desire this moment

The girl asked me for my address, and not long after, I received a photo she sent. I turned my face to the side, and there was an infinite sense of loneliness in my eyes

Mo Bei supported me, who was still very weak at that time. I looked at Jian Nian's face through the crowd of people pushing and shoving each other. He moved his lips slightly, but no sound came out.

She wrote a sentence on the back of that photo: You are very beautiful, but you look as if you are very sad

Mo Bei held me tightly in his arms and said, "Su Wei, you cry, go ahead and cry."

I felt it unnecessary to say too much to someone I met on a journey, so I simply smiled and nodded. After receiving my friendly smile, she asked me, "Since this is a trip, why are you not bringing any luggage at all? Not even a camera?"

I quietly gazed at the wall, feeling time flowing like a river, slowly passing by my side

In the room at dusk, the light is dim and faint, and the air is stagnant

But if it is not like that, then what will it be like

But I know what he wants to say

This moment is a lifetime

In the middle of the night, I woke up due to thirst and saw the moonlight casting on his face